Broke College Kid To.. Unemployed.

So, great. I'm not longer a 'broke college kid.' I am officially unemployed.

I pretty much imaged me having a job by June. Working at a PR firm, a nonprofit, or just working somewhere. Instead I am continuing the job hunt - while sitting in the pool, visiting friends, exploring New Paltz and Woodstock. Can't really say I have it bad at all.

Yet there will be time my grad money runs out. In 6 months loans will come running after me. I have to remember to prioritize what means the most to me, such as paying off loans, a social life, family & friends.. spending money on books, food, crafts!

I just hope that no matter what, I will not get sucked into working for a living, and forgetting what I love to do most.

Washington DC! First Adventure.

This 2014 I vow to have a better year full of adventures that will expand my mind and soul.
So this is now my blog - of things on my mind, places I have been, things that inspire me and fascinate me. I want to remember everything that I will accomplish and the struggles I hit along the way. Life is a journey, and I want to remember it all.

Washington DC - this was really my first trip to NYC --> DC --> BROOKLYN.
We spent about 4 days in DC with my cousin, who was a wonderful host. I cannot thank you enough.
- Lincoln Memorial ✓
- Space and Air Exhibit ✓
- National Art Gallery Museum ✓
- MLK statue ✓
Then we spent a snowy evening in Brooklyn (a block away from BIGGIE'S childhood house) with Jon's childhood friend with the comfiest couch in the world.
- Homemade dinner: pesto alfredo tortellini with chicken ✓
- Jameson ✓
- NYC whole wheat everything bagel with sausage, egg and cheese. ✓✓

As I learn more about Jon, the more he makes sense. Everything about him, from his daily habits, to his usual tendencies, where he gets his crude humor -- meeting his family, his friends, those most important to him / is all made up of his past. Everything that he has been through, how he has faced his battles (in and out of camp) - has made him into this man that is so perfect for me. I love everything about him. He's exactly what my hearts been looking for.

This is the first to our many adventures my love.

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Thank you.

You know what I never really talk about?

My parents income. The type of family I grew up with, the kind of household most people would classify as poor.

6 days a week - Wake up at 4:30.
Come home at 6.
84 hours a week.
$26, 000 each. $42,000 a year.
A household of 4.

That is what we have been living off of.. living paycheck to paycheck. Nothing to save.

Here I am working my ass off, going to school full time, waitressing, interning - doing what I have to do. What is that I have to do? Get a job and start supporting the family. This education, this schooling is all to get a job to pay for shit. To pay to live.

"I feel the pressure. Their vigorous years are creeping up, while their savings are very behind... I'm scared for them. I am scared for myself."

And I honestly begin to wonder - all they gave up to be here. To ensure a better life for my brother and I.
All those lonely, painful days of wondering when things will get better. When things would change.
Now that I come home from school breaks, I see that nothing really has changed - which is the most upsetting.

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